I would not brag and say I am perfect or prove how I am better than everyone else because I know in reality that would make me a liar. I can not stand people like that. It ok to be happy and proud of something you are part of but it just wrong when you only interact with people within your social group and disregard everyone else who do not share the same beliefs or not part of the group you are in. Everyone is different if we were all the same life would be simply boring. Just imagine having the same conversation never discovering anything new about somebody or learn something new from them. Everybody deserve a chance you may never know what you could get out of it maybe that someone could help you get out of a situation or somebody you can rely on you never know. What will we gain if we ignore and put aside people who we see as unfit or do not share the same beliefs as we do. Why not we put our pride aside and begin to acceapt others who cares what other people think. I did not care when people start talking trash about my friends even to my face because they are my friends and I believe trust is an important factor when it comes to anything. Just because many of my friends left church does not mean I should turn my back or disregard them like many people did. I should respect their decision and continue our friendship because what the point of losing a friend over something that not worth it.I still talk to these friends and I am glad to know that they always have my back just as much they believe in me.

I want to make an impact on other people lives not just to do that but to reach out to them and give them that chance just as a teacher named Ruth did for me. At the beginning of the year I was one of the brightest student in the class I had many friends and I could get along with everybody and vice versa that is until my problems at home began affecting me. I lost alot of weight I began to lose many of my friends as I kept getting ill so often that it frighten them. With the problems I faced at home I began to get paranoid and felt I could not trust anybody. My schoolwork began to decline and I did not show as much intrest as I did before. Ruth was a teacher in the college who also supervise our class she was like a teacher aid for our class and notice this dramatic change in me. If it was not for Ruth I doubt I could have survive and completed the year she really took care of me because of the problems I face at home I lost motivation not just in my work but in myself as well. At times when I feel like giving up Ruth would always be there to encourage me to keep going. I never had enough money to last me for the whole week which left me starving the majority of the time but Ruth found out about it and gave me enough me to survive on. I learnt through Ruth to be able not just to trust people but to give them that chance to let them in especially if they want to help. I manage to complete the course I was taking and even got the most outstanding student in the class. None of this would have been possible if Ruth had not reach out to me. Even though she could not see me get that award I am sure she would have been proud of me. I want to be able to go that extra mile for somebody just as Ruth did for me. I would not be where I am today if it was not for her.

I guess one of the reason I am intrested in being a social worker is because I feel that people are not doing enough in helping those who needs it. just because a person has a problem does not mean they are completely helpless and useless they could also have qualities in which we may not have. I met a speaker his name is Nick he was born without limbs but yet he inspire the world with his story and that anything is possible if given the chance. I know I may still be young but I heard and met many people with problems who inspire the world and overcome their problems because somebody gave them that chance. I have problems who doesnt but I manage to get this far because the people around me gave me that chance. Nobody deserve to give up their dreams just because of who they are instead we should be encouraging each other. Even if you do not like what you are doing either you bear with it or you quit because people trust and look to you but if you are going to make somebody life worse with your own problems then what the point that how I see many people not just social workers these days. People with disadvantages they look for support somebody to believe in them not somebody who would make them feel that they are actually different because they want to fit into society just as much as the next person so why not we step out of our comfort zone and give them that chance because dont you think they deserve it as much as we do.

I really want to thank god for really making a difference in my life and for putting such awesome people in my life as well.Jesus have save my life countless times not just on the cross but in my everyday life. At times I feel that I really owe God my life. When I was born I was in a freak accident which almost cost me my life but God really gave me that chance to live and I would not be writing this if it was not for him. I have several disabilities but I was glad to be given a persistent spirit despite my disabilities and I was also grateful that my disabilities was not as bad compare to others to be put in a disable class. I have a dream to make a difference in other people lives just as god and other people who reach out to me made a difference in my life. In the past I had alot of insecurity issues because of who I am but now I am happy just being myself and living my life to the fullest. I used to think what kind of future do I have and used the fact I was different as an excuse because people see me as a freak because of my illness but now I have a vision to be a great social worker. A friend once told me she see greatness in me and that one day my story will be a great testimony everybody wants to hear at first I felt like laughing and say please how can you see that in me when I cant even lead or the fact im not sociable enough but now I feel what my friend once told me may be right.When people finds out or listen about my story they would often tell me that I motivate them to keep going no matter how bad the situation just like I never gave up on life no matter how many times I cry because I know that I must get back up.

at times I wonder should I keep my distance from others because of who I am. I know it is not my fault I have this sickness it just happen. The doctor said somewhere along the line someone in your family may have the disease as well that why you inherited it because the disease is a genetic disorder. I felt sad when he told me if I get any children the chances of them getting the disease is high and I do not want my children to suffer the way I did. I hope there will be a cure not just for me but for future generations as well. I often felt bad when I lash out at others thinking they do not understand what I am going through when it is also my fault for putting up barriers and walls around myself. I guess it because I am afraid as well the fact that my disease makes me different from everyone else.

when I first found out about my disease I cried my eyes out thinking how unfair God was to give me such a disease and the fact that I am going to be a freak at such a young age. I was only 12 when my family and I found out about my disease. I suffer from schizophrenia and began hearing voices as young as the age of 12 which is rare. The disease really affected my life I have trouble coping in school and it not easy making friends with people giving you strange looks.I am glad to have such a great family always by my side especially when I feel unwell. Even though I have no control of my actions and I do horrible things without realizing it but I am glad to know that at the end of the day my family will always stick by me. As I got older I begin to realize how precious and fortunate I am that there are others out there worse off then me. I was also diagnose with a disability I have a borderline low IQ which is lower than a normal person IQ. My mum always tell me to never give up and to do my best. Even though I have all these problems I always follow my mother advice for she is one of the many reasons I keep going.

my big sister my friend

I remember when I was hospitalize in singapore. At first I was afraid of the past and myself but then I met her. She was another patient her name is Jerlyn. She look after me during my stay there we did almost everything together. She even went that extra mile for me when she got discharge before I did. She would often consult my family members when she is worried about something because she knows the nurse would not listen to her. An example was when I was struggling with my meals at the hospital but she explain to my family members to change my diet to a diet which I am more familiar with which is a western diet and that it only cost 2 dollars extra then the regular meals but if it would benefit me rather I struggle. After I got discharge we still meet up but I never forgot the things she did and help me with when we were in the hospital. Even though she got discharge a day earlier than I was she wrote a note to my father to help me request for a transfer for she fear for my safety when she get discharge and she even show me who can look out for me when she get discharge. Friends like her do not come everyday and I really cherish her not just as a friend but the big sister who look after me when I was in trouble thanks for making a difference in my life.